Don't fuck with my heart, assholes.

Sitting here, wide awake. Why do I always put myself in this position? Are the words lingering through my mind. Was everything a really big misconception? Is it that hard too call somebody my baby? Why does this always happen to me? Can I at least get what I want for once in my life? So many unanswered questions. This sucks. I would never have thought I would be put in this situation of mine. Been played. Been lead on. Been there, done that. This fucking sucks. It's fucking up my system. Twice in the past 2 months. REALLY?! Are you fucking kidding me? I don't want somebody because of pity. I want somebody who wants me for being me. Someone who accepts who I am & go through all the shit I will go through in the future. My heart is all damaged. "Wait out for that person to come to you" Fuck that shit. I know what I want. I'd rather go chase after someone than live in the "What if" life. I got too fucking caught up. Insomnia kicked in & now I can't fucking sleep. Funny thing about it, I didn't even get a chance.

I hate finals!
Well not really... I just don't like doing tests. I've been having those small urges again. Why? Just for kicks. Life is boring. I need some excitement into my life. I want something NEW. The "OC LIFE" is boring as fuck but I can't imagine myself being somewhere else. I don't really have much to say now. Everything is alright I guess. Irene came over earlier, I haven't seen her in ages! Well we hung out at my place & just caught up with everything. It was nice. We saw a raccoon in my neighborhood & decided to chase after it... hehe. I have no legit plans this weekend! Gonna wing again. 3 day weekend for the next 3 weeks ftw : )

Currently listening to:


Ever since I started talking to you, you got the other off my mind. Too many teasies out there. Let's see if I'll do anything about. Most likely not. I think I'm more in the friend zone. But it's all chillllll.

Woke up at 1pm today. Took care of my nephew for a bit. Didn't do anything for a long ass time. Matt came over at 10pm & we headed out to Janise's house. Hung out there till 1amish? & went back to my house for 2 hookah sessions haha. I have one more coal left, saving it for Paul for later today when he comes over :') I had a good night. Except that my face was red for a little while... Hahaha. Still got that feeling but I know nothing's gonna happen.

I found a new favorite song : )

I've been so lazy to blog nowadays.
Been having one too many hookah sessions I might say haha.
I've been losing my head, again. I'm going fucking crazy.
This is one story that will get me confused whenever I tell it. It hits me so hard.
I had a dream about you last night. I wish I have never woken up. It was the best dream I've had in such a long time. You were mine, all mine. Too bad it was only a dream.
Been fucked in the head TWICE in the same month. Complicated shit. I'm just going to stop, hopefully.

Anyways, I love trio days. I could tell them anything & won't judge.




Oh & I love Andy Luong forevez

Saturday - Stayed home & napped. Andy came over & brought food over from Guppies. He left around 9pm. Matt came over at 11pm & we talked for a bit. My mama bought me a flip ultra HD<33 I love you <3333 : ))) Tina Nguyen came over around 1am. Had a trio night. Went to Denny's around 5am & had a hookah session at 7am... hehe. They left around 8am.

Yesterday - Andy came over with Little Caesar's pizza. Had a movie day. Well I K'OD... hehe. Went to Starbucks after & picked up Brian Pham & Tommy. Went to go see Janise (thanks for the pen!) Drove around. S/O. Got home & watched some more movies with Andy & I fell asleep so early....

Oh so my mom got a dog. His name is Bomi. He's ugly but keeps me company : )

MOLAS.
It's a 3 day weekend & I can't go out! How fucking exciting! -______- Oh well since I can't go out, my friends come to me! BWAHAHA I love my friends! Like last night, Matt, Tina, Trang, Katelyn & Lam came over & brought In n Out :') Too bad I wasn't in a eating mood. Tested out Scarlett yesterday too with my sister :') Then Lam & Matt. Fuck, I FUCKING LOVE YOU SCARLETT. Had a long ass conversation about my situation with Tina last night. I got a lot off my chest. I'm so happy you're there for me <3 : )

Cute :')

MOLAS.
My baby Scarlett came in on Monday! She's so lonely in my room right now : ( I don't know when I will be able to use her! Well who knowsss. This week is going by pretty quick. A lot of shit happened. It was filled with many expectations. But then reality hit me. I don't really get why my hopes are still up. Mucho up & downs. Oh well, shit happens eh? Other than that, I guess I've been okay.

FORM SPRINGGGG;
Q: don't you think michelle sneaky is the cutest person in the whole entire world?! i mean, she's the greatest person alive!
A: Eh, she's alright. HAHAHA just kidding, I love her! :') She's there when I need her. & I'm there for her when she needs me the most. No matter how many days, weeks, months we haven't been talking, we still start off where we left off :')

Q: who do you like?
A: That person knows.

MOLAS.
Friday, let's say it was fun at Rooster's : )
Yesterday was very adventurous! Andy picked me up around 11am & we headed out to LA to go sight seeing and shop. It was kinda a fail since everything was rape prices & the stores we expected didn't have a lot of shit... But it's okay! Okay experience : ) I'd have to say, the Johnny Cupcake store is so fucking cute!! Went to Beverly Hills after to look for the mall. Oh my.... it's so huge! Like so big that me & Andy decided to just drive around the parking structure & was too lazy to get out of the car. So we bounced HAHA. After that we headed out to Cerritos to go eat at Dolphin Bay but we ended up getting lost & ate at TGIF since we saw one. It was so satisfying : ) Good thing we got lost! Otw out, we saw a 350/370z meet so we decided to take pictures. After seeing all the stock/supped out cars, it makes me want to have one now... Headed out to my house after & I took a power nap. Went to shoot pool after & headed out to Downtown Disney after, but that was a total fail. Went to Joe's Italian Ice cream to visit Nica at work. Then headed out to Wendy's to go try the new spicy chicken nuggets. They're okay. If you tried the spicy chicken sandwich, it's like the same but just with the meat & in small bites. Went home after. Long tiring day, but had a nice time with Andy, like always :')

Anyways..... HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE KELLEY SNEAKY NGUYEN<333 I FUCKING LOVE YOU :')
Even though we aren't talking as much anymore, you know you have me whenever & I have you whenever. I love our friendship :') Happy big 17!

MOLAS.
Auto was fun today. Here's Mike kicking a Miata we destroyed.... Via twitter;

First day back to school. I was dying.. I was running on a 2hour sleep... So bad!! My eyes were tearing up in 1st period today cause my eyes were burning since I wasn't used to the light D; Well today went by pretty quick. Andy picked me up after school & we headed out to Knott's to fill out job applications. Went to Westminster Mall after, visited Susan at work & roamed around to see if anybody was hiring. It was a no go... His girl met us up at the mall & we walked around & went to In n Out after. Then he dropped me off home. Got home, stayed up for about 30 minutes and napped for about 4 hours... I guess I'm staying up tonight again...

I really like her voice!

Today was very interesting haha. Winged it the whole day with Andy. Nice way to end Winter break. He came over around 2 I think & I got ready & left the house around 3. Went to this sushi place with him to meet up with his girl & his girl's friend. But stuff happened & we bounced to Vivian Do's house. Hung out there & the 3 of us went to the Orange Circle in Orange. Dropped VDo back home & headed out to Cindy's place. Hung out there, talked & caught up. Went to Trang's house to kick it with her & Katelyn. Went to the HL for awhile & dropped them back at home & he took me home. Got home & went to Walgreens with my mom. Oh my, we had a really deep conversation that made me burst into tears.... She told me to stop but I couldn't. She means so much to me & I don't know what to do without her. I won't let you down, not even for a second mom. I promise.

The only picture I found on New years eve/New years. @ Vinh Ky 2 for some pho at 3am
Via tinangyn's BB

I don't remember taking this.. but we cute, kinda..